Giving Permission to Overcome Fear

Today's postcard from the divine is from Aphrodite

If you could do anything without any barriers or limitations, what would you do? I find myself asking myself this question a lot. What would I do to take better care of myself and my loved ones? What would I do to feel more comfortable in myself and in the world? What would I do to bring myself endless abundance? These are questions that often swirl around in my mind. In these reflections, I've come to realize that it's only when I permit myself to do the things I desire, that success in a certain area of my life truly comes to fruition. The limitation is the fear built up in my mind. To overcome these fears, I must permit myself to go forward in my desired pursuits. That's the thing though, I often find myself so consumed in my fear, that just getting up to start feels impossible. This is where my spiritual practice comes in. The practices I return to allow me the clarity and intention to shoot after exactly what it is I want at any given moment. However, in order to see grand results, I must have a laser focus on any one goal I want to achieve. In this, I will explore with you the modalities in which I achieve my goals and permit myself to pursue the dream life I crave to achieve.

My Relationship with La Santa Muerte Rosa

Healing my self-worth truly began when I started working with Santa Muerte, but I didn't see significant changes until I started working with her pink cloak. That's where I truly saw such a huge shift in the way I perceived myself. I would take each insecurity I would have to her and truly work through them, one at a time. There wasn't much prayer or active devotion. I wasn't heavily involved with the community yet and would follow only her instructions at that time. Simply giving her a shot of tequila and nothing more. With her, I worked through my gender insecurities, the way people perceived my gender, how I perceived my beauty, the way I interacted with men, and how I would take care of my body. The areas of focus would always be dynamic; yet, I always knew with enough time and attention any given fear that plagued my heart would be resolved with focus intention, and reflection.

I follow here with a few examples of how this focused intention and trust in the divine helped me overcome any fear I faced:

I was at one point very insecure about how I looked. I was severely bullied as a child for being queer and into really niche interests. This constant torment, as well as the harsh criticism I would often face at home, made me an incredibly timid and insecure person. No matter how hard I tried to look for validation in others, I would never truly feel I received it. I was always met with brutality and at best, a backhanded compliment. I desperately wanted love and validation past the men who objectified me. I turned to Santa Muerte for aid and found myself spending every moment reflecting on what exactly it meant to be pretty. I spent time with these thoughts, buying clothes and makeup, trying different styles out, and doing what felt good to me. And after a while, I started to see how beautiful I truly was. I started the journey using things outside of myself to feel more or less pretty, but I realized that's not what truly made me beautiful. It was that I wanted to be kind to others. It was that I radiated passion and excitement for so many things. It was that I proudly wore all my art and shared it with endless joy and pride. It was that I could confidently be myself without fear. That is when I truly saw the shift in how I looked. Looking back, I see that shift, me slowly transforming and shaping into the beautiful person I could only dream of being. By embodying beauty in my heart, I truly grew in beauty. A natural progression in unintentional glamour magic with the help of La Santa Muerte. It's crazy to look back and see how much I've changed. People I haven't seen in just a year barely recognize me anymore. I barely recognize myself. I embodied my beauty within and truly came into myself.

Past Me

Current Me

I hope with this, I explain how much a clear and intentional mindset can do for someone. It truly is as simple as thinking about your fears and reflecting on the limitations that hold you back from true growth. This, along with faith that there truly is divine intervention does help in these sorts of processes, but a belief in a higher power is not required. Change comes in faith, whether it be just in your self-worth or the divine. I've noticed that having faith in a high power can be a bit easier for breaking down these limiting beliefs, only in that perception of a high being having more power and sway gives a greater sense of comfort knowing that things can change. People may often see themselves in a negative light, which may make it harder to call in the change desired. Regardless of your approach, consider reflecting on what exactly it is you feel is holding you back. What do you truly fear and how is that limiting you from achieving your dreams? It's nice to make a list of these fears if you want to tackle them in a certain way or need clear direction, but this step is a personal preference. Now that you have a good idea of what exactly it is that holds you back, sit in it. Truly reflect on the feelings you hold and really sit on it. If these feelings get overwhelming, take your mind off the fear and do something that brings you ease. It's not about forcing yourself to take on more than you can handle; rather, taking these feelings day by day. These reflections don't need to be every thought but consider coming back to these fears whenever you can.

When you take the healing process slowly, you will see yourself become less overwhelmed by these fears. I would even recommend researching what you are afraid of. You will see that lots of people have their takes on different things and searching for someone you can relate to makes a task so much easier. Even in learning new skills, such as coding or a new language, constant exposure does so much more than a single day of grinding. Just know that progress is often not linear. Even with confidence in my beauty, I do see myself slipping back into a space of doubt and feeling ugly. These feelings are normal and a part of human nature. It's hard, but you have to remind yourself that these feelings will only consume you if you let them. You must remind yourself that these are the feelings of fear you face on your journey and they must be nurtured. You must be gentle with yourself when you fall off so that you can come back stronger and brighter than before.

In cases where these negative thoughts are astronomical and cannot be fully nurtured by yourself or the divine, I recommend seeking professional help. As a deeply spiritual person, I will NEVER put spirituality over physical and/or mental health. Spirituality only takes care of the soul, you must also take care of your mind and body to fully embrace healing. Even I will go to therapy as there are some things I have a difficult time working on myself involving complex trauma. This does not make me or anyone else less capable of achieving their dreams or overcoming their fears, it's the awareness that you need help that will truly allow for success. You become a stronger version of yourself when you grant all aspects of yourself to be strong and guided.

That's all I have for today. Allow yourself the permission to go after your dreams, address the blocks and fears that hold you back, and give yourself the room to grow into the best version of yourself. Never forget the divine always loves you, regardless of how you perceive it( god, self, divine, infernals, ete.).